Ch. 1 of Body Clutter

So one of my goals for the week was to read the 1st chapter of my new book Body Clutter. I finished reading it this afternoon and could definately relate to the women writting it. In this chapter the book talks about food being a weapon of destruction and a drug. Something goes wrong in life and the first thing we reach for is food. We use food like a drug to help comfort the soul and also to reward ourselves. Food is our comfort zone. When we're full we're content. I am a very emotional eater. Ill be the first to admit when. I get upset shoving food down my throat pushes all the stress and problems away. The first step is realizing why we are eating how much we actually eat. The book goes on discussing about how we handle our food as a drug. Do you keep lots of it around, play tug of war mind games, or lose the battle and in the end lose by beating yourself up? I can say. I've done all three. Its all about taking baby steps and.listening to our bodies. We have to learn the difference between emotional eating vs.
True hunger pains. This chapter has opened me up to realize my emotion eating stems from issues in the past that I haven't let go of So now its time to let go.  I'm learning to gear my negative into a hobby or workouts....I know.I'm rambling and probably all over the place, but I wanted to blog each chapter from my view.

SCC Mid week 4

Hope everyone is having a great week so far! I've been trying to get myself more motivated in my workouts. I've went to the gym Monday and Tuesday. Not sure if I will go tonight or not. I have been super exhausted this week. I just feel like I can't get enough rest. So I checked out this new site today called Loseit.com. Has anyone used this? So far I like what I see. The food is very easy to record. I love that I can record my food and exercise and it syncs to my profile online! I'm on the go alot so this is a great feature for me. However, when I put my info in it told me to lose 2 lbs. a week to eat 1831 calories. Right now I'm doing 1640. I've been going up and down so much in the past two weeks that I'm going to give this a shot. I am really nervous adding on the 200 calories. What do you think? My Body Clutter book finally made it in today and I started reading chapter 1. Hopefully I'll have time to meet my goal and have all of the chapter read by Monday. Again I hope you are all having a great week. It's hard to believe we're in our 4th week already.

Week 3 Summary Week 4 Goals and My Plan to Revise

This week has been more of an emotional week than week 2. I have no idea why. Nothing major happened that was bad. My workouts kicked butt. My food was good till the weekend. My weekends tend to kill my momentum. I don't know why maybe someone can explain it to me. I work on the weekends (Friday and Saturday night) Im off Sundays. Why do I feel the need to get off track on the weekends?

Week 3 Summary:
Week 3 Goals:

• Continue to drink 80+ ounces of wate each day =Success
• Workout  to 4 to 5 days this week = Success
• Blog twice this week (This has really helped me vent) = Success
• Log food at each meal = Success
• Attend Kickboxing class on Saturday morning = fail weather was bad
• Revamp my Ipod for some new music for my workouts = Success
• Time each mile I walk and improve each time = Success
• Support my fellow chicks! = Success

I hit every goal this week. So why am I so upset? I feel like I didnt try hard enough with my food on the weekend. Friday night I had a stromboli not the best pick but was within my calories....so why do I feel bad? Saturday I did great I even past up the sweets at work. Came home I was so hungry I ate two pieces of ranch veggie pizza. I felt like a failure.... Today had small piece of cake at a baby shower, a ham sandwich and two chicken nuggets, Got home had two pieces of ranch veggie pizza and some chips. What the hell is wrong with me?? This is really getting me down this week.... So Week 4 I'm changing some things....

Week 4 Goals:

• Continue to drink 80 ounces of water
• Workout 4 to 5 days this week
• Log each meal
• Read chapter one of Body Clutter
• Blog about Chapter One
• Plan my weekend meals
• Support my fellow chicks

This week I'm going to change from weighing in on Mondays to weighing in on Wednesdays. I'm also going to have my husband put the scale out of my site until weigh in day. This is a personal and emotional battle I'm having with myself. I'm not sure why its coming on now, but I've had enough. I've got to learn to get past insecurities and the emotional stress. So thank you for listening to my rant and I hope you all have a great week!

Getting past the negative.....

This week...has just been another week. All the way up till Thursday the scale did not move. I mean didn't budge up or down...I had worked very hard this week with 3 hours logged on he elliptical alone not counting the rest of the work I had done with drinking my water and eating right. So as you can imagine I was devastated. I always see a loss during the week. To not see anything had me worried. Especially when I know I've worked harder this week than last. Sorry for the rant.

SCC Midweek 3

This week has been better. However the sweet challenge didn't last long. I have kept within my calorie count. I've drank at least 80 ounces of water each day. I've worked out 2 of the 3 days so far. The workouts have been very intense. My mood has been better and I feel better about my workouts. Hopefully that means I'll see a loss this week. I'm anxious to measure on Feb 1st. I know I've lost inches and hope it shows where lbs. may lack. I hope you all are having a good week so far. I plan to workout tomorrow morning. Friday is undecided. I usually work a split shift so if I go it will be late. Saturday I'll have the kickboxing. Sunday will be more cardio.

SCC Week 2 Results and Week 3 Goals

I could definately tell it was week 2 this week. Here we go:
W2 Goals:

• Drink at least 80 oz. of water daily = success -1 day
• Workout at least 3 to 4 days = success I got 3 days in
• Journal Journal Journal- This will be my main focus this week = Success for the most part I slacked on Saturday and Sunday
• Go to Kickboxing Saturday morning = Fail I had a funeral and services on Saturday so I was out of town
• Blog at least twice this week about how my weeks going = Success
• Support all my fellow chicks! = Success
• Do the mini challenge of eating with the nondominant hand = Fail I couldn't remember to do this challenge.

So I got 5 out of 7 goals this week. I'm down a total of 1.4 lbs this week. I can't say I'm happy about it but with the week I had its not unexplainable. This week will be better!

Week 3 Goals:

• Continue to drink 80+ ounces of wate each day
• Workout  to 4 to 5 days this week
• Blog twice this week (This has really helped me vent)
• Log food at each meal
• Attend Kickboxing class on Saturday morning
• Revamp my Ipod for some new music for my workouts
• Time each mile I walk and improve each time
• Support my fellow chicks!

This seems like a lot this week for some reason. I am going to try my best to do the sweet challenge. However I know me and sweets and at least once a week I treat myself with something within my calories. I will try not to do that this week and load myself up with fruit instead. I hope you all have a great week. I decided to give myself something to work for and will be doing a half marathon in May in Cincinnati. So my goals will start to focus around that event. If anyone has any training tips I would GREATLY appreciate them. Have a great week!

It's a bird, it's a plane, it's the flying pig?

So if you read my last post I just lost one of my uncles this past week. He had cancer and suffered from a massive heart attack at 53. This past week was just weird. My eating was decent and within calories. My workouts were lacking. I posted my goal to be 3 to 4 times this week at the gym. Tonight will be my third time. While in the city with my family I realized something was missing. I just wasn't feeling the same about this journey of making a new me. I need a change. I haven't felt the purpose in getting my workouts this week. I don't know what happened from last week. So while talking to some family and best friends this weekend I realize I needed a change and something to give me to look forward to in my workouts. I've decided to register for the Flying Pig Half Marathon In Cincinnati, Ohio in May. I've got 15 weeks to get in the training and work needed. I know I won't be able to run the whole thing or even hald and that is important to me. What is important is that I work hard and finish it for myself . Whether I walk or roll across that finish line I will finish! I don't have anything to prove to anyone else but myself. So if you pray, please say one for me and my legs lol, because we will need it in the next 15 weeks! Training starts tonight. I am so happy that I will have family joining me and hopefully lots of support waiting for me at the finish line!